Sometimes you sit down to write a post and the thought that dragged your butt to the chair has vanished, or the blank screen sitting ominously in front of you seems too big, too much to contain the words you’re trying to massage out of your brain. Or, maybe, your head is simply elsewhere. I know the feeling. I’ve been there a few (many, many) times this year.
It’s time to catch you up… and I have a feeling this one is going to flow.
Not long after I scooted out of the corporate world and launched my much-adored, flipping brilliantly supportive business early this year, I noticed that as my biz gained momentum, my mindset started shifting towards my blog (never fear, keep reading – this story has a happy ending).
Truth be told, this year my mindset has shifted towards a helluva a lot in my life. A reading with Tali from AstroStyle confirmed something I’d been intuitively feeling all year as well.
2013, cosmically-speaking, has been all about retreating for me.
Going in… and deeper. Conserving energy. Dabbling with the magical, philosophising and questioning everything – mostly The Way I Do Life.
I’m conscious it may not look like that on the outside with a business, lots of travel, speaking, product creation and all the rest, but I have definitely noticed subtle and sometimes not-so-subtle changes in my energy this year and have found that, where the old me would have pushed through even if I was beyond exhausted, these days, feeling energised and supported MUST sit at the top of the list (I don’t always get this right but I’ve been practicing and I’m thrilled to have taken quantum leaps forward). (win!)
The difference in how I live day to day is that I spent last year majorly adrenally fatigued; this year, I get up from the computer and walk over to the beach of an afternoon and soak it all in. I don’t beat myself up if it takes me days to reply to emails, and I reshuffle mid-week catch ups with friends guilt-free if my schedule is getting out of control. I call in more support, clear my chakras and get off social media when I’m maxed. Occasionally, I say no to opportunities with an ‘I’d love to but I’m at capacity this month. Next month okay with you?’
I’ve never done that before. And I feel amazing for it. There’s a marked difference between the kind of self-love/ self-care that happens daily (the preventative, cup-filling, nourishing variety) and the kind that happens when you’re burnt out and HAVE to take time out. Learning to make the first type the baseline for everything I do has improved my life immeasurably.
(Also related: every health practitioner/ psychic/ energy healer I’ve ever gone to has given me a talking to about ‘boundaries’… and I’m sick of being the naughty client, so after years of ‘yeah-yeah-ing’ I’ve finally made the change!)
Before I go on, I want you to know this:
If you’re just starting a business:
It’s ok to let something else slide so you can give your livelihood your all – and you should, especially if it’s been a big dream of yours forever (this also applies to having children, big life moments, writing your book etc).
Accept that you’ll be called up to expand/ recalibrate/ switch gears temporarily. Things will reshuffle again. Trust me when I say they always do. After 8 or so months of working out this entrepreneur life, I’m ready and raring to get back in the blogging saddle with gusto (more on that below).
Rather than looking at what’s changed as a negative – “But I’m less available for XYZ!” – look at, instead, what you’ve gained. Soul growth, more wisdom, more self-knowledge, greater confidence. Make a note of the positives somewhere and refer back to your list when you need reassurance. Makes it all worth it, huh?
Think long-term. Allow yourself to dive into your business/ creative/ whatever bubble in the short term so you can lay the foundations for greater success and fulfillment in the long-term.
Now, let’s get back to the blog.
First, there was the busyness of business, and to be frank, there have been many times this year where my brain would have been stretched to spell my own name at the end of the day. I won’t sugar-coat it – it’s been hard to keep up with all of it. Juggle-juggle.
Bigger than that though was this question: “Now that my blog goes hand-in-hand with my business and isn’t just a side thing anymore, what does that MEAN?”
How do I want to write now?
I’ve grown and stretched – shouldn’t my writing should be Pulitzer prize-like in its brilliance every time I put fingertip to keyboard? (note the inner critic chirping in here)
Should it all be ‘teachable moments’ now that I’m a coach?
What about the personal stuff – is it worth writing about that thing I’ve been working through when I’m not a ‘dweller’ and I’ve normally moved through the emotion an hour later/ by the next day?
I started ‘shoulding’ all over myself. I lost sight of what this space has always been about – sharing honestly, empowering change and – y’know – life in all its glory – and put an expectation on the site needing to be a ‘certain way’ now that I was running a business (and one where all my clients come via here and my social channels).
HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE THIS?
Here’s where I’ve ended up.
I have an eBook launching with my beautiful friend Tara in two weeks. This is just the start for this project – we have a few other ideas up our sleeves, and all of it is aimed at inspiring you to come back home to yourself (because – you know what? You are so damn wise).
Writing collaboratively every day has been the most rewarding, divine experience and has reminded me how much I love to create. In fact, the experience has been one of the absolute highlights of my year. There’s something about the depth of the writing, the design, the distillation of knowledge and the dedication to it the process when it comes to to product creation that I ADORE. More from me on this front for sure (my eCourse is next and I’ve got BIG ideas!)
I’ll be back here regularly after the eBook launches, with a few posts beforehand. I wanna know what you wanna know. Would LOVE to you leave your feedback in the comments if you have any requests for topics to be covered/ fears to be busted/ challenges to be contemplated.
I wrote this post by means of explanation and to catch you up, but now, let’s move this ship forward. How’s about it? As I said, I’m not a dweller, but I do think it would have felt weird and disingenuous to show up back here again with a helpful how-to or a random story without giving you an insight into the transitions that have been happening over here.
The future is bright, beautiful, and I’m excited. Let’s do this. x
Abstract painting (because life is like that sometimes) by Lola Donoghue